The K-Pop Thread

I am so fucking stressed out right now and it’s all because of that little shit I call my brother.

First off, I’d like to point out, that EVERY DAMN TIME he’s been coming over to the house, usually to stay for the weekend or whatever, I’ve been feeling angrier, more frustrated, SADDER (though idek how I can get even more sadder than I already am) and just generally more stressed out. ALL NEGATIVE EMOTIONS, GUYS.

And I’m just realizing that and it’s just???? I don’t even know.

Most thing I’m stressed out about? Money and gas for my car. Usually on the weekends, he takes my car to go to work, or I drop him off and pick him up. When he’s over, so is his girlfriend. Who usually has to pick her up and drop her back off at home? ME. MEEEE. IN MY CAR. SHE LIVES LIKE 20 MINUTES AWAY.

And it ALWAYS has to be me. ALWAYS.

BECAUSE I HAVE ALL THE DAMN GAS IN THE WORLD

AND ALL THE FUCKING MONEY TO PUT MORE GAS IN MY CAR TO GO TO FUCKING WORK

TOTALLY GUYS

It just makes me so MAD and frustrated! His dad told him that he was going to put the insurance on his car after my brother gets a job. HE GOTS A JOB? WHERE THE INSURANCE AT?

Now he on some shit saying that he’s gonna put it on when he starts school in June?

UM??????

DO YOU KNOW HOW INCONVENIENT THAT IS TO ME?

WHEN IM THE ONE THAT HAS TO TAKE HIM TO WORK ON THE WEEKENDS???????

LIKE HES TAKING FULL ADVANTAGE OF ME AND I JUST??????

THIS MAKES ME SO MAD AT MYSELF AND I DONT NEED THAT BECAUSE I ALREADY HATE MYSELF AND I JUIST DONT NEEDT HIS

AND EVEN TODAY. MY brother said that he didn’t have work today ONLY TO TEXT ME WHILE I WAS AT WORK SAYING HE GOT WORK AT 5????????????????????????

I ask my mom cause they had gotten into it last night, and she said for me to take him. Im like whatever fine OF COURSE I HAVE TO

and he fucking told me that he had gas money

THEN WHEN I ASK HIM FOR IT

“I DONT GOT ANY GAS MONEY”

I JUST????

I WAS RUNNING ON FUCKING E DAMMIT

E

AND YOU GOFDSGHCJKSASA

and then while im taking him to work, he’s like “I got a eye doctor’s appointment tomorrow at 10”

I’M????????????????????????? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??????????

HOW IS THAT MY PROBLEM?????? WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME????

And by this time I’m trying not to cry, though I did cry a bit when he told me he aint had any gas money. I’m just in tears the whole way there and I start to cry driving back home

and I spent the LAST fifteen dollars I had in the bank for gas and im just

I like to keep at LEAST 20 in my bank for emergency purposes and it JUST NEVER WORKS OUTTTT

And dont even get me started on the whole food thing

HE WAS HERE ALL WEEKEND

WHEN IS HE GOING BACK TO HIS DAD’S HOUSE

I KNOW THIS IS FUCKED UP BUT I DONT WANT HIM HERE

I DONT

I DONNNNNT

I always have headaches when he’s hair, like I said above, I feel sadder and more frustrated and angry, he’s an overall jerk most of the time and I just feel like scream sometimes.

I”m mad at him, and I’m mad at his dad for pulling this shit like that

and im mad at my mom too for pushing this on me.

Yeah, her job is farther away than mine

BUT WHEN SHE USES MONEY SHE HAS TO BUY CIGARETTES AND PHONE CARDS TO TALK TO HER BOY FRIEND

AND THEN COMPLAIN OF HAVING NO MONEY

AND THEN ASKING ME IF I HAVE ANY MONEY

IT MAKES ME SO ANNOYED AND ANGRY BECAUSE LIKE

???????????????????????????????????????????????????

ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

I JUST????

WHY???????

IS???????????

THIS?????????

HAPPENING?????????????????????