by hitachiin-fangirl Thu Jun 13, 2013 1:58 pm
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Drat! I wrote a birthday message for you Cinnamon on your birthday, but it's not there. I mustn't have uploaded it properly. Oh, well.
Happy belated birthday and I hope you had a wonderful day.
In my post that didn't work, I said that I was at my dad's house but I would be coming back to my mum's the next day because she changed her mind about kicking me out. I was gone for 5 days and when I came back to my mum's an argument started within 30 seconds of my walking in the door! I knew the truce wouldn't last long but 30 seconds is just ridiculous!
I have to stay here at the moment because I'm starting a placement on Monday. Still looking for a place of my own but there's very little out there and absolutely nothing I can afford. Even with benefits to subsidise rent, I would be left with no money for food or bills. Because of this, I'm entitled to support in getting a place cheaper, but I will have to wait a while - probably months.
I've just applied for a job so I've got my fingers crossed I'll get it. My lack of experience my be my downfall but let's just see what happens anyway. With a decent income, I could afford a flat and could get out of here sooner.
My cat is glad I'm back (because I spoil him rotten while my mum doesn't even give him treats).
I finished all my exams but they all went badly. I was stressed to high heaven with everything my mum was doing that my revision suffered enormously and she even yelled at me from 10 until midnight when I had an exam first thing the next morning. I kept pleading with her that I had to sleep but she wouldn't stop. When I woke up, I was so sick and exhausted that I almost didn't go in for my exam but I forced myself anyway. I now need to take another year out of my life to repeat the exams again (if the school will let me) and I'll have to fork out over one hundred pounds (again) to pay for the exams.
This is just depressing. I got a bonsai tree in September last year and it was doing poorly. I was having a rough time too so I said we'd both make it through together (kinda weird, I know). I'm sure the tree is dead. It hasn't had any leaves in months and it's the height of summer here. I've been taking good care of it but it just didn't make it. (Is this a sign for me?)
I saw another one in the garden centre which I might buy next time I'm there. It was pretty cheap.
I'm taking things one day at a time and pushing all the bad stuff to the back of my mind so I'm sort of coping. I'll be travelling to a big hospital in the capital next month to see a specialist doctor. Hopefully that will be things taking a turn for the better. Being in pain all the time is certainly not fun.
Sorry for being such a downer but I just needed to vent a bit. I can't leave everyone depressed like this so
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!