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2011-12-15 19:02:19
My beloved grandma
Hi.
I have sad news today.
It's showed up in many blogs, too, but
my beloved grandma suddenly passed away.
I heard about it from Manpei.
At first I didn't believe him at all, but more than anything else, I was surprised.
I told Manpei something like
"Bastard, don't lie to me."
The inside of my head just went pure white.
Cause just a while ago she was doing so well.
Even though she said, "I'll see you again, ok?" with a smile...
How?
Why?
I still wanted to give my grandma so many things.
Why??
I won't forget her last smile.
It's painful.
I want to see her smile again.
Grandma
I miss her.
Ever since I was little, I've really been Grandma's boy, and she would fix me dinner and run my baths for me.
We went to festivals together, and trips, and out to dinner, and out to see plays.
I remember all of it.
When I came home to Nagoya and visited my grandma, she would always ask me "Have you been trying hard? Watch out for your health, and do your best!"
She was always really, really, really gentle.
She was full of love and kindness.
She was someone I could really respect.
She was stronger than anyone else as she fought that sickness, and it gave me a lot of courage. And motivation.
Like, I have to work harder and harder.
It gave me tons and tons and tons of encouragement.
In tough or painful times, when I saw my grandma, I thought, "I have to work super hard."
Even now, I'm able to do my best like this because my grandma was there.
She was such an important person to me.
But
if I keep such a sad face forever, my grandma will get sad, too.
So grandma
I'll do my best!
I'll work so hard that my determination reaches all the way to Heaven!
Just wait and see!
Cause when I get back to Nagoya, I'm going straight to see you.
But for now, please rest peacefully.
I love you.
