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2011-12-13 13:58:54
I don't wanna believe it
My beloved grandma suddenly passed away today.
My older brother called me to tell me.
I couldn't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
I really, really loved my grandma.
When I asked her if I could post her picture on my blog,
she would always pose with a smile for me, even though she was embarrassed to do it.
Every time I visited home, I made absolutely sure to visit her.
When I saw my grandma's smiling face,
I'd feel at peace.
Because my grandma always did her best, I felt like I had to do my best, too.
Since I was a kid,
she was always so affectionate toward my siblings and me.
She made us hot dinners,
and filled up the holes in our hearts when we were sad.
When we were striving to be actors and moved to Tokyo, she worried for us every day.
Before the auditions, she prayed to God every day that we would get the part.
The first time I stood on a stage,
I was anxiety-ridden.
But I got a letter from her.
I always keep it in my wallet and carry it with me.
She was filled with that kind of love.
I can't stand knowing
that I can never talk to her again
or call her name one more time.
We have to do a Manpei & Shinpei quiz but
I'm depressed.
I'm sad.
I love her.
But I need to be an adult.
Shinpei and I are going home to Nagoya to see our grandma.
